Friday, June 26, 2009


A Definition of Friendship
Friendship is the comfort, the inexpressible comfort of feeling safe with a person having neither to weigh thoughts nor measure words, but pouring all right out just as they are, chaff and grain together, certain that a faithful friendly hand will take and sift them, keep what is worth keeping and, with a breath of comfort, blow the rest away. Dinah Mulock Craik

I think I am really hurt by someone who said is my friend. no just friend. She said that I am her best friend, that she had no idea what she would do without me. Now I know. She would have found another friend. Another person who is closer and who is the same like her. Meaning who doesn't have purpose in life, who doesn't follow his/her dreams. I have a strange feeling that she might be jealous and this is the reason of all this mess.

But starting from the very beginning.... I know my ex best friend form high school but we got very close during the college time. I finished my Master degree last year, she's facing the final exam to get BA degree this year. She had problems at University, but I'm not the one who judge. I don't care. Now I'm in Geneva, she's still in Poland. I'm following my dreams, I'm not sure she has one apart of leaving Poland. When I was in April at home, she had many excuses of not having time to see me, this time I sent her messages and she didn't replay. She just wrote me an email on Facebook that she has problems with her mobile phone and if I can call at different number. Well why she couldn't have called me? Why she wrote me an email for saying that? Now she saying I'm mean, that everything is my fault and this is me who treated her bad and with no respect. I am in shock!

I feel so hurt. I have no idea what has happened to her really...

Thank God I have a real best friend from my childhood. I have no memories without her. She is like my sister, my best friend and my Mum - another amazing person in my life. I love them very, very much.

However I still cannot understand a behaviour like that. I feel hurt . Really hurt. That's sad if you feel you are losing someone and you don't know why...

"The glory of friendship is not the outstretched hand, nor the kindly smile, nor the joy of companionship; it is the spiritual inspiration that comes to one when he discovers that someone else believes in him and is willing to trust him with his friendship." - Ralph Waldo Emerson

Much love. Deva.


O.F.C.J. said...

Hello, I am new to this blog and found your post very interesting.I found you on 20sb comments group.Yeah, I know what it feels like to have a friend (for me, not a bff, but still) and then all the sudden feel no effort from the other end as if it never really mattered. But life moves along, and God gives you what He wants for you. True sisterly love. Amen.

Please check out my new blog ;)


Deva84 said...

Thanks for your comment. Yeah it's hard but what won't kill us, will make us stronger, right?

Much love to you! and of course I will check it out!

Fran said...

So true. I read an article today talking about friendship, too.

People come and people go, some friends are becoming distant but fortunately you still have someone close to you!

Deva84 said...

yeahh I am. I know it and I am grateful for these people in my life.

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