Bradshaw got me thinking... again!

Yes once again Miss Bradshaw got me thinking and I've been thinking!!! Thinking about life, friends, life and of course relationships.

I need to quote her! "People say 'Everything happens for a reason.' These people are usually women. And these women are usually sorting through a break-up. It seems that men can get out of a relationship without even a 'Goodbye,' But, apparently, women have to either get married or learn something." Why is so damn true??? Why we cannot just walk away without extra thinking? Without this drama? Without this heartache?!? Cos we are women. And we just can't. We were made for thinking! And God knows well - it's hard!

It was long time ago that I felt very sure and confident about myself and my life. And now I am. I am in that point of my life that I have absolutely grown up to decisions that must be made soon. And I am so damn happy! Recently I have had some doubts, but doubts are just doubts - we must overcome them! Remember those 20 ways of getting and staying happy... there was something about vision that we need to have a vision of ourselves and our future. So I can say it aloud. Now I have one. And I'm not afraid that something will go wrong. I'm just sure of what I want and now I know how to get it. Absolutely amazing feeling. As we drive along this road called life, occasionally a gal will find herself a little lost. And when that happens, I guess she has to let go of the coulda, shoulda, woulda, buckle up and just keep going.

Coming back to relationships. I "think" I get a clue why my past is haunting me and I'm begging you - don't laugh! I let my past to come back to my life again and I can't feel bad about it. I think is just kind of my protection of not involving in anything which includes feeling. Yes I think I got an answer about couple of questions that was still sticking to my head.

In love relationships there is a fine line between pleasure and pain. In fact it is a common belief that a relationship without pain is a relationship not worth having. To some pain implies growth. But how do we know when the growing pains stop and the pain pains begin? Are we masochists or optimists if we continue to walk that fine line? - that's so me! Why it should be easy?? I don't like a word "easy"! Everything which is easily attainable is not worth having it... in my humble opinion.

Finishing this post..."Welcome to the age of un-innocence. No one has breakfast at Tiffany's and no one has affairs to remember".

Love you! Deva.